Stuck

My patience is running low.
My heart is numb and has no feeling.

Have you sensed it?

If you're not the one...

Exception

Had quite a satisfying sun tan today. Hopefully I'll find the time for another round of tanning before the final examinations start.

Everyone seems to have already started mugging other than me. I'm the only exception. I've got neither the motivation nor the energy to pick up the heavy notes from my schoolbag and examine them. It's such a difficile task.

I can't afford to laze around and neglect studies anymore. MOTIVATE me people! I need those As and ADs!

I'm a time waster and I should just dream on. Right.

Oh and you remembered, but it's not that crucial anymore.

Think

Would you even think of me when you're feeling lonely?

Unpredictable

Xu Wei Lun has passed away. She held on to her breath till 7.37pm yesterday since the accident that happened on 26th of January. She's only 28 this year.

I'm traumatized by this piece of shocking news.

Life is simply unpredictable. Sigh.

Chinatown

Banned area from now on: Chinatown.

I really had enough of there. It's infested with uncivilised people. Had dinner there today and I almost fainted with anger. Argh.

Demolish Chinatown! Quiiccckkkkkk!

& I need you to be more sensitive.

Scar

Thanks to the following people for the belated birthday wishes: Jiamin, Kaili, Sienwei, Angela, Amanda and Shujia.
Still I appreciate them.

A day of fun with the amazing friends. Singing, chatting, role-playing, snacking, dining and our usual emo chats. It's awesome and I enjoyed myself, really. =)

Memories that came flooding back to me resulted in my tearful eyes again. The pain is gone but the scar just stays intact. I need to lose part of my memory. Can I?

You left a scar in me...

Blessings

I turned eighteen today. Tons and tons of gratitude to those who sincerely wished me a happy birthday. A simple statement but it definitely means alot to me, because this is when I realised who are the ones who're there for me and really remembered.

& the list of great people goes like this: Jianrong, Esther, Yixiang, Shiying, Jiehui, Adeline, Jianye, Doreen, Denise, Samantha, Melvin, Kwoonjiew, Qizhen, Huixin, Yuanfeng, Huiping, Jae, Emily, Yongcheng, Zhiwen, Peihwa, Carol, Jiayang, Xueting, Liuwah, Zhikai, Xinrong, Huisi, Serene, Ziying, Songquan, Sherry, Jumie, Liyue, Yanping, Zhanhui, Max, Grace, Kelly and Shurong.

I certainly hope I didn't missed out anyone. Thanks to all those who remembered. As for those who didn't, I can't remember yours either.

Sometimes it's just despairing when the person you hanker for to remember just simply did not. The long awaits of that particular blessing just seemed like forever. Fate.

I gave up.

If

Today's a fine fine day. Finally attended POA lecture and it was the last. BCA was kind of crappy so ya, nothing worthed mentioning.

Cabbed down to town with the rest for Suki Sushi buffet. It was supposed to be a pre-celebration for my 18th birthday. Food was mediocre while the company was not that bad either. Some of them couldn't make it and so well, was rather disappointing. Still it was quite enjoyable. Thanks to those who made the effort to spend it with me. I truly appreciate them.









I love buddy J!

Can't believe I'm turning eighteen in less than an hour's time. Woah. So so so so so freaking fast. Soon I'll be able to do many of the things I wasn't allowed to do in the past. But the harsh fact just says it all, I'm no longer a child but a young adult already. I've grown up!

Wish I may, be able to handle things better, and that includes relationships with people, studies, my emotions and etc. & not forgetting to find back what I've lost.

Out of a sudden I've got this feeling I've never had for ages. & what if...

Reason

We all believe that everything happens for a reason. Yes, I'm a believer of that. But somehow, we just do not get the desired reason we ask for. & some may not even bother explaining for their doing. So, what is this all about? Don't tell me this is self-explanatory. It's not reasonable at all.

For many of the misfortunes I've met, I just do not get the reasons. Even till now when I try figuring out what went wrong, I'm stumped. While some may choose to run away from reality, I'd choose to face it now. I'd rather know the truth, than to get myself confused over the matter, like now. Regrets.

As for those who gives outrageous reasons, you ought to be ashamed of yourself. & this includes me. Ha! Well, at least I don't now.

Time is slipping away so fast, even before I could ask for a reason. & this is probably the saddest thing on earth.

Crankiness

Some random pictures taken on Sat chill night.

NR5 after that as usual. Home sweet home.

Fragile

6.36 a.m. I couldn't sleep any longer.

Life got a little better since. Amidst in the busy workload I finally got to realise more. And thank you, for showing me the way out.

Saturday was again filled with cool chillness with my besties. The insane boy and the girl who loves to sleep. They're more than anything to me. & pictures to be uploaded soon!

Sunday was in fact a rather hectic day I went through. Rushing through to complete our work. 12hours of fun and exhaustion, but it was all worthed it. I'm just overjoyed to share more with them about myself. They're yet another group of important people in my life.

Come to realise love's actually, more fragile, and weaker than what you think. A love today might just turns out to be hatred tomorrow. Love is not as strong as what you think.

So much for the crap you might think, it just happened once again to people around me. And friend, if you're reading this, choke back your tears and brace up. I'll be there for you.

P/s: & to some scheming people, stop sounding like you're some love saint. Your actions and words are making me sick.

Illusion

I felt so much like I've been wasting my life away. I'm simply so sick of cheating myself, trying to forget you, enjoy life and stay happy. It has all been an illusion. I wasn't happy at all. Nothing seems to be able to sparkle my life anymore. Maybe... you. Maybe.

Life's like that. And I'm getting sick of the daily routines!

ROAR. I need a life.

Un-excitement

Er. It's been ages since I last blogged. Can't really remember what I did actually.

Monica's birthday celebration at New York New York on 8th Jan. Treated the seven of us to dinner. She's too good to be true lar. Thanks(: And happy birthday to Jae too! Both of them turns 19.

Shiying/Xueting turns 18 on 14th Jan.

Xuelian turns 18 on 15th Jan.

More to go.

& 8 more days to mine. I'm not feeling any excitement at all. Wonder what's going on.

Had swedish meatball for lunch at Ikea today. Super filling. Felt a lil giddy after that.
Tmr's NP Open house. Not involved in anything. Thank god and I've got no lessons tomorrow.

why did you cut your hair!!!

Start

School has been really tired these two days. Ended at 7pm ystd while today ended at 6pm due to the make up tutorials and lectures. The feeling of going back to school is definitely not good. Have got to wake up so early in the morning and facing all the projects and assignments. Super sian.

Have been going for night jogging since yesterday. Am going to keep myself more fit and healthy. My stamina's obviously going down from the pace I've run these days. I missed having PE lessons where the whole class runs together around the school. Hahaha.

Jae is super scary because she could actually guess something right. Got a shock out of it lar. lol. But she's super nice. She tells me alot about my eye candy in school since she knows her too. hahaha. But a lil upset over one of the info.

Oh yea. New year eve and new year day itself was alright. Spent my new yr eve night with JR and XT. Spent quite alot on that day but it was fun lar. Watched Blood Diamond, recommended by XT. Not a bad show. Both my Xmas and New yr eve countdowning were in the cinema. lol. The other time was watching Night at the museum which was pretty good too.

Anyway, three of us stayed overnight at coffee club till morning then i took a train home. Was super packed can.

Played mahjong on new yr's day at zhiwen's house. Met up with Sam first before to his house. Lost some money. Well, seems like my gambling luck this year doesn't seemed very good. hahaha. Gotta play lesser already.

Hope you recover soon shiying! haha. Please be more careful next time.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE.